scene: you on the 2 train downtown. reading a book.
strategy: looking down means you don’t see them looking at you.
rationale: they will forget you, you will never forget them.
cue child: “why are his nails painted? boys aren’t supposed to do that!”
6 more stops.
lose place in book.
cue mom: “boys can do whatever they want!”
strategy: pretend not to notice.
cue child screaming:
“mommy, it’s not right. boys don’t do that!”
cue train amused. cue train smiling.
child: “look, everyone look!”
cue nervous smile.
strategy: laughing at yourself makes them more comfortable with you.
strategy: laughing at yourself makes you more comfortable with you.
rationale: why would anyone want to look like you?
cue mom: “you better be quiet or that man is going to attack us!”
cue conspicuous body.
cue adams apple.
(i mean cue original sin).
cue frenzied breath.
cue palpitating heart.
cue churning stomach.
cue too-big hands.
cue too-big shoulders.
cue too-big gall.
how dare he leave the house?
how dare he take the train?
how dare he be?
how dare he she?
how dare! heshe!
your beauty is their beast.
your victim is their villain.
do not look back!
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