1. I AM STILL IN LOVE WITH ALL OF MY EXES. I OFTEN WONDER HOW IT IS POSSIBLE TO BREAK SOMETHING THAT WAS NEVER COMPLETE TO BEGIN WITH ANYWAYS.

2. THE OTHER DAY A WOMAN ON THE SUBWAY WAS READING A BOOK CALLED, “THE OPPOSITE OF LONELINESS” SO I STARTED CRYING. I COULDN’T TELL IF I WAS MORE TOUCHED BY THE TITLE OR HER HONESTY.

3. WHY ARE THERE SO MANY MOVIES ABOUT THE END OF THE WORLD? THIS HABIT WE HAVE DEVELOPED FOR AESTHETICIZING ARMAGEDDON INSTEAD OF STOPPING IT (HINT: WATCH THE NEWS INSTEAD)

4. I AM TOO CYNICAL TO HAVE A THERAPIST. I AM TOO JEALOUS TO HAVE CLOSURE. I AM TOO STUBBORN TO GROW UP. I AM TOO ANXIOUS TO HAVE STABILITY. I AM TOO JADED TO BELIEVE IN SOMETHING ELSE.

5. I WISH I COULD “LOVE MYSELF” OUT OF SYSTEMIC OPPRESSION. TRAUMA IS A STRUCTURE, NOT A FEELING.

6. HOW MANY BIG WORDS HAVE WE DEVELOPED TO KEEP US FROM SAYING “I AM SCARED.”

7. I HAVE WRITTEN THE SAME POEM MY ENTIRE LIFE. IT BEGINS WITH “BODY” AND IT ENDS WITH “I’M SORRY.”

8. WHICH CAME FIRST: THE ‘BOY’ OR ‘THE POEM ABOUT THE BOY?’ ‘LOVE,’ OR, THE STORY OF IT?

9. I WRITE THEORY TO MAKE MY FEELINGS SEEM MORE LEGITIMATE.

10. I DO NOT BELIEVE WE WILL WIN. I DO NOT BELIEVE HOPE SHOULD BE A PREREQUISITE FOR TRYING ANYWAYS.

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